I've come back to re-read this post twice now. It's such a great story. I hope your husband is nicer to you these days...you deserve kindness at any size!
Thank you, he has his days, as I do...we're more like roommates right now...damage is there and he's not putting in any effort to fix it...and I hate to say it, I'm not sure where we go from here...but for now I work on me...letting go of pain, stress and pounds. But balancing a child in is what makes choices harder.