Personal reasons of my health will force me to do what I'm supposed to do!  Corner you where you don't have a choice if you wanna live.  Personal advise...  Don't wait that long.  Scary!  When I was doing so well before...  Well it's like a person on meds for bi-polar or something to that effect and they are feeling good, so they go off their meds.  That's me!  I'm not bi-polar but you get the idea here.  I have to do this as a life choice and not just for the moment.  Honestly, we all do.  So I'm trying again and for life or death I guess.  Sounds so dramatic tho.  If your reading this, thanks!