So my five days of juicing preceded by five days of whole foods was wonderful, and I was definitely ready for the transition this morning. Had a great smoothie for breakfast, small salad for lunch, but dinner time hit and the same franticness I've experienced before definitely reared its ugly head. I overate a bit (beyond satiation), and I could tell I was looking for comfort. If I really reflect through the day, i would guess that two factors were in play - 1. screen time gains a momentum and takes me out of my body and into hurriedneess. This definitely supports conditions being right for me to want more screen time, to pay less attention to food, and to shift into a consuming mindset. 2. I was doing my finances today, and no matter whether my budgeting is looking fantastic (which it is now) or if I have to cut back, somehow it always brings me right to the heart of my work in building my sense of self-worth as a self-employed person. It's this feeling of taking a (life) quiz, and there's no one there to check my work and tell me which questions I got right. So underneath that I see loneliness - lack of mirroring & validation - which makes sense as a contributing cause to the need for comfort.
So... rather than belabor all that!!... Some things I'm excited to share:
I worked out at 6am three mornings in a row this week.
I have clothes that are getting too loose for me now (words cannot describe this kind of joy)
I am glimpsing what it could be like to actually reach my goal weight and maintain it (spoiler alert - the confidence comes BEFORE, not after, the goal being reached.
With the confidence I'm building through meditation, affirmations, and a slew of other resources, I am easily gaining new referrals for my business.
I am letting go of friends, habits, rituals, and places that are not supporting my best (and healthiest) self. THIS IS HARD, and I commend myself for really allowing these things to fall away, even when they were held very dear to me in the past.
I know that when I have doubts about my progress or my ability to reach/maintain success, I can meet these doubts with softness, ease, and understanding while NOT mistaking them for the truth.
Doing great and hope you all are, too!