So I guess we can weigh in tomorrow, huh? Wow... I can't believe it's starting already. I have a lot of thoughts going on in my head lately so I thought I'd write them down before the bet starts.

The biggest thing that gets to me is eating "clean" all the time. I look at all these people that eat nothing processed all the time and I'm exhausted just thinking about it! I know, I know...its gradual and a lifestyle change. But that still doesn't help. All the meal planning, prep, making....whew...who has time for all that??! I'm extremely lucky if I get a shower most days! I think that's why we eat so many frozen and processed foods...its just so quick and easy. And right now I'm battling the whole screaming-baby-while-I-try-to-cook-dinner thing going on. And I have to start making dinner around 7 because the hubs comes home at 7:35 for his dinner break at work. So this time is also when baby should go to bed. It's rough. But yeah...I feel like you'd have to constantly be planning for and thinking about food to make sure you're eating all your meals and snacks "clean." And how the heck do you manage eating out or on the road?? I have no idea...

So that's why I'm already feeling anxious and overwhelmed. I actually did the whole "clean eating" thing all this week starting Monday and did it probably 85% of the time, which is pretty good for me. Funny thing is, I'm probably the only one in this group that doesn't yet own an Instant Pot...but I'm asking for one for Mother's Day. I've made some pretty darn good food this week - even the husband approved!! (Gasp) I legitimately shopped for the first time ever at our Sprouts store for groceries - and boy let me tell you was I ever a fish out of water! Ha! I bought some stuff kind of randomly so it might go to waste but overall I did really well. It was a little cheaper than I imagined too! Money is extremely, extremely tight for my little family. I definitely felt way over my head and overwhelmed shopping there. I bought two sweet potatoes to make homemade sweet potato fries with. I cut the end off one today to make them and to my surprise it was white inside! I actually had to Google it to find out there are such things as white sweet potatoes. I had assumed they were all orange and no idea. I am such a noob to healthy eating its funny.

So anyway, did I feel any different after all my super healthy eating? Well no, not yet anyway. However, I took my nearly 3 year old on a lunch date to McDonald's (I know, ugh of all places) so he could play there and I promised him ice cream. After we got home I tell you what - I felt like crap!! I had 2 of the buttermilk chicken tenders, fries and the first soda I've had in a long while. And as I grew up (and typically agree with) the whole saying "Waste not want not" I finished must of my son's unwanted cheeseburger. Ugh my guts were gurgly and just felt awful. (I know, some of you are like "well DUH" lol) It was a pretty noticeable difference for sure. I really don't feel like eating at fast food burger joints anymore. Arby's is a different story...I love me some Arby's lol.

Granted, my son has been sick with a virus the past 2 days making life a nightmare, but I am exhausted from making food. I wonder if that sounds totally pathetic. I already feel a little burned out. I think I maybe took on a little too much to start - but I'm just dying to lose this weight! Depending on how much I weigh in tomorrow, I'll have to lose about 8-8.5 lbs in 4 weeks with this bet. That is actually a lot for me, so I am very nervous. I lose that in more like 7-8 weeks.

Well I better get some sleep. I'm excited to see what I weigh tomorrow! I usually only weigh myself once a month but I'll have to break that habit for this bet. On the 10th I weighed 209.8 lbs. We'll see what tomorrow brings!! Goodnight all and good luck!!