I am sure you can do this. Try to change your strategy. Little steps will make a huge difference. Substitute things - mustard for mayo, salsa for salad dressing, lettuce for the bread on your sandwich, add sparkling water to your wine, an apple instead of a cookie or ice cream. You would be amazed how many calories you'll cut; you won't feel deprived and the scale will show a result. Be creative - think ahead and this journey will become easier for you. This is your life. Be strong and smile on.