A steady diet of SUCKITUPBUTTERCUP!

06/19/2015 5:14AM

I just saw my friend's mom who lost 200lbs and has kept it off. We talked about weight loss and she said that she is always always standing on a cliff. If she bakes, she won't even lick the spoon because she might spiral. It's sad, but I think for me that's the only way too to do this for life. Just like an alcoholic can never learn to have just a glass of wine, I don't think I can ever learn to have just one piece of chocolate. I don't think having something in moderation is an option for an addict like me.

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bahhhhh

That's EXACTLY how I feel. What is it they say in AA? Admitting you have a problem is the first step? Well, here we are. Forewarned is forearmed. I think it's okay to say it's sad. I'm still deciding. I don't want to feel like it's sad, you know? Food shouldn't have to make people feel so emotional and-- for me-- crazy. I wish (oh, wishes) I had a healthy relationship with food, but I'm not sure anyone really does. Maybe food is my abusive husband that I'm still learning how to quit. Oops, I self-analyzed instead of a real reply. Anyway, thank you for reading and I'm glad I'm not alone, even though I'm not glad you have to go through this too.

Hillary S.

"One's too many and thousand is not enough", right? I think I'm finally in a good place after lots of soul searching.