For goodness sake. How did I let myself gain another 10 lbs? I was only 10lbs from my goal weight. Now I have to lose 20lbs. If one more person tells me it's muscle and not fat, I'm gonna lose it. I got my body fat measured and I gained 10% body fat even after working out 4x week minimum. I have been going through a lot of health issues, dwindled down my savings to nearly nothing trying to find answers.

I haven't slept in almost a year.  Yes, that's right. I have to nap during the day to regain some energy because at night I'm constantly coming out of REM sleep. I don't ever feel refreshed. I find myself not breathing so I'm guessing it might be apnea.  I heard and read that if you don't sleep it messes you up and makes you gain weight. FML.

I'm scheduled for a sleep study then going to the gasto dr to confirm gut lining issues. Thank Goodness you can't see my faux pregnant belly in the black outfit. I feel like I have more health issues than a typical 50 year old.
This is going to be the beginning of a new era for me. Granted it's already Sept. It's never late to start. I"m going to kick my health issues in the nuts and finally lose this unhealthy belly weight. 
I have stopped posting selfie pics on facebook because I hate the way I look. I don't recognize myself anymore. The photos I do post are very calculated, I usually have deleted about 10 that were no good before settling for a far away shot.  I don't know how to photoshop or edit my pics so I have to take a ton of pics to get that ONE good decent pic.

If one more doctor suggests that I take diet pills I'm going to give up on Western medicine. I refuse to take diet pills. I will continue to eat clean and work out even though the results are not encouraging. I think once I tackle my health issues the weight will fall off. Everyone said once you quit sodas, you immediately lose 10lbs. I did it cold turkey and still soda free for almost 2 years now, not a single pound lost.

Just venting.