I can do this

“People always ask me, “Don’t you miss pizza and stuff like that?” That’s kind of like asking someone who plays in a band if they miss watching TV. No, motherf****r, I’m playing in a band. I didn’t watch CSI: Cleveland tonight because we recorded a f*****g album. I don’t miss pizza because we’re all obsessing on getting our weight perfect.” - Penn Jillette Best quote of the day! 12/10 started my period today and I am feeling awesome! I am going to believe today that that is the cause of my 2 lbs "bloat" and cause of my 3 cookie cave-in this morning. Pants are feeling good. Need to work on the water thang. Blood sugars were great in the past 24 hours. Walked with JD last night and saw 6 deers; swore they were stalking us! lol All right all right all right! Pity party is officially over! Let's get 'er done!

Thanks Vegan Warrior for noticing! This is my first DietBet and I am enjoying the process. My exercise goals are two fold - elliptical in the am for 15-30 minutes 5 days a week and to walk with friends in the pm 4 times a week for 60-90 minutes. I work in a school so sometimes schedules can make that goal tough. Next semester I think I will be ready to add weights to the mix.

12/9 having a CRAP day. It is starting to feel like I won't ever be able to eat out of the house and infront of other people again, 'cuz when I do, I just GAIN. I even brought my own food for f*** sake. A handful of popcorn cannot be the cause of a 2 lbs gain. And I did the elliptical for 49 flippin' minutes after getting home at 8:15 ish. I am having a hormonal food pity party, care to join? ^ thoughts for the day: I drank my water challenge yesterday. I brought my planned food. I worked out. I will do it again today. Drink water. Eat planned food. Walk with JD. We already know that the diabetes will make this challenge difficult. Hense the word ... challenge! Others are dealing with worse things (parents dying) that they really have no control over. I have control over my health. My blood sugars are doing fantastic! Cannot wait to see the next A1C. And did I feel a difference in the waist line of my pants today?...

12/8 Just not really hungry today even though I must eat. It's 10 am and I just now ate half my breakfast (yummy sweet potato - need to do THAT more often). I was kind of stressed out by what I was going to eat today since I have to work late. But I actually had some planned out leftovers in the fridge I had forgotten about so now I am ok! Do I dare mention I am .3 lbs away from goal? I am so thankful to have this forum to be able to talk about nothing but food and weight as I get scared to talk about it with "outsiders". lol I don't want "them" to hold me accountable - just my peeps who are in the trenches with me! +'s for the day: the insulin change seems for the better. not feeling so low. My shirt feels extra baggy. I did 20 minutes on the machine this am, even when I felt like sleeping. I pooped! -'s for the day: still frustrated by the pants. We are enemies. FEAR. I must conquer it! Fear of success. Who knew? Actually I have know about it for quite some time....

12/7 really low blood sugars. had a 53 right before lunch. NOT good at all! Lowering insulin from 29 to 27. +'s : packed breakfast and lunch, and hit the elliptical this am, and will walk w/ JD again tonight. -'s : need to poop! (damn cheese)

You make me soooo HUNGRY!!!

12/6 second job at the GROCERY store. fooooooooood everywhere. weakness is grabbing a soda while I work. Taking my water with me. Walking with JD tonight.

12/5 drinking water ... even on the weekend! Late start though. measured out cereal and milk. and krab meat. breakfast of champs! peanutbutter sandwich 4 lunch. Chilli for dinner. walked the neighborhood but will also do elliptical.

12/4 blarg .... gained .8 lbs. Naked, with clothes, before and after a poop. up .8 lbs Nuts. +'s for the day: made daily water goal by 4pm. measured out food for breakfast lunch, and snack. -'s: LOW blood sugar of 63 before I was able to eat lunch (late). Need to plan Fridays better. Perhaps snack and then lunch. Will drop insulin from 31 to 29 for the next week.

12/3 I am LOVING the food scale right now!!! So this is a real serving? No wonder I am so heavy. 2 oz of cheese (my weakness) is not a lot! In the past I think I was averaging 4-6 servings at a time. Yikes! +'s for the day: woke up in time to get 30 on the elliptical, measured out all meals today even though I went over on my carb allotment tonight, will do elliptical again tonight. -'s: went over on carbs, but had good blood sugar #s during the day, struggling with negative worries, caught sight of my upper body profile and became blue/frustrated/demeaning to myself. ^ thoughts: I AM doing this, it is working, and people are noticing. And I love the blog diary :)