Weekend overview :(

Well, the weekend has come and gone. I had grand plans for the weekend on Friday and while I didn't do too bad, I didn't do as good as I wanted. I ate wayy more than I wanted to. I am proud of myself though because I averted a B/P. I've been struggling with Bulimia since I was 15 off and on. I notice that the urges hit me during my PMS time which I experience for 1.5 weeks before my period. I went to the gas station and got a donut, 3 cookies, and two candy bars and had intentions of going to Burger King and getting 2 #1's and planning to throw it all up and instead I just ate a few bites of the donut, the candies, and a bite of each cookie. So, not the best but I added it onto my points tracker and went on wtih myself. I did not track my points the rest of the day though. I have to remember that perfection is for the birds, LOL. I'm still just disappointed in myself. I weighed this AM and I gained 1.5 from WEdnesday. I should just stop weighing myself so much because Wednesday is my weigh day and I should just take what I get that day. I'm craving junk right now. I'm PMS'ing and I just want to eat candy and donuts while crying, LOL. I have to fight this urge and i'm strugging. I feel as though I"m really really struggling to not eat junk or to not B/P. I just want to win this dietbet. It's a huge deal for me.

I did run my 5K and it was SO HOT AND HUMID! Like 90 with humidity and the run was at 5:30 pm! The last 5K I did it took me 40 minutes and this one took me 43. I did run more than I did last time, my goal was to beat my time. That kinda bums me out. I followed my 8 week to 5K program and i'm on week 6 where i run for 10 minutes, walk for 3 and run for 10. Normally that's no problem but on Saturday I had run 4 minutes and thought I was going to die. I'm not sure why I didn't do that well? I should be proud that I finished though. I don't know I can't explain why it wasn't good enough? My goal is to get under 200 lbs and finally be in ONE-derland and you know what, I was 201.9 on Wednesday (203.3 today) so I"m sure i'll be lighter this week but I'm still not overjoyed, or it's not sinking in or maybe I don't look as good as I thought I would at this weight.

I'd like to lose more inches vs weight, how do I do that?

Sorry about such a debbie downer blog post but, hey it's my blog, LOL :)

Jessica M.

08/25/2014 6:42AM

For every negative thing, say something positive. Running a 5K is a big deal!! You did it!! Way to go! And not binging, that is HUGE! Find some better snacks to have on hand when the urge hits (I have low carb ice cream bars), so when you do give in to the urge, and you will, so why fight it, you won't beat yourself up. We're a team, cause we are all in the same boat. GO TEAM!

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