First let me list what I ate yesterday. My only form of exercise was some more sexercie, dishes, and organizing my closet. That's it ~200 calories burned
Breakfast: 2 eggs
AM snack: 1/4 cup of almonds/craisins/pistachios, 25 oz water, 1 cup coffee
Lunch: Cosi light turkey sandwich, fruit salad, side salad 25 oz water
Dinner: 2 grilled chicken breasts with 1 cup of broccoli 1 egg and extra sharp cheddar cheese, 25 oz water
Pm "Snack": 2 scoops of protein powder in water, 25 oz water, HALF A MOLTEN CHOCOLATE CAKE and 1 whole can of tuna with hot sauce and salt AND 1/3 of a stout
Total calories 1,883
total protein 163 grams
total carbs 131 grams
total fat 69 grams
YET I AM MY NEW LOWEST WEIGHT IN THREE DAMN YEARS
I ate 450 calories "more than I'd like to" but so what my body is happy and I feel good
I also ate 29 grams of protein more than I needed (+25 more grams of carbs but I think the extra 4 grams of protein helped) but I still consumed a whole lot of fat. I didn't take any alli bc i thought my fats were very spread out. I ate every 2 hours yesterday, way more than I ever do. I think chicken eggs and tuna are what helped me lose weight- I honestly think I've been starving my body of what it needs and it has actually been in "starvation mode" for a very long time.
I watched Fed Up last night and it reinvented the way I look at food. While taking a few bites of my fiance's chocolate cake I pictured the sugar going into my body and being made into fat immediately- but I thought about all the fats I ate all day and all the other fats containted fiber (more fiber grams than sugar grams) so they are NOT metabolized the same way, so a few bites of cake (1) would not kill me and (2) it would make my fiance happy to taste something that he made at work and traveled in a blizzard to have me try and (3) small splurges help prevent you from feeling restricted and prevent you from binging later on. So I am finally in the 24 BMI range and I feel really happy about that.
Also, I had a pregnancy scare last night (I read the test upside down and didn't realize I had done this for a few hours) and I was actually okay, Chris and I already have a plan for what we would do if I got pregnant in grad school. For example, if I got pregnant now we would continue to live in Virginia. The only recent change is that I would have to travel home alone to tell people the news since he doesn't get any vacations until 2017. I would also not apply to my optional advanced practicum. I would continue on as normal for the next two semesters but leave all of my jobs for the fall semester, since that would be when the baby is due. I'll only have 4 hours of classes September-March, which could easily be scheduled on Wednesdays when Chris has the day off. I could still take COMPS, I could still apply to internship, and we could still afford to live here since I would get government help for being a "single mom" since we are not married. I would have NINE months to lose the baby weight. Hahaha.
But I am not pregnant, thank the gods of the universe
Plus, I weighed 157.8 lbs this morning. I didn't believe it, I stepped on the scale more than 6 times and they ranged from 156.2 to 157.8 but 157.8 showed up 3x so I chose that weight, which means it will be even lower tomorrow!
My fiance closed his kitchen today since the winds are 50 mph and the sidewalks are covered in 2 feet of snow. Aint nobody got time to walk 2 miles in that. So now were making our own pumpkin beer and pumpkin hard cider (it wont be ready to drink for weeks) but at least were making it together :):)