Really Trying to "Recover"

So I have really been having a hard time with my weight, and it's amazing how freaking easy it is to just pack up the pounds and how hard you have to work in order to lose the weight.

Anyways, my problem is that I either restrict way too much (lets say 600 cals a day or less) or just binge eat. I am trying to find a happy medium. I have been looking into "Intuitive Eating" which is basically what is sounds like, trying to fine tune my body so that it get's back to picking out the foods that it needs without restrictions. So this is letting me eat whatever I like and/or want (to an extent) without feeling like I'm depriving myself of foods to avoid a crazy head on binge.

So the issue is you're not really supposed to count calories, but realistically when you've had an eating disorder for over 15 years you just can't turn the switch off and stop counting calories or getting on the scale, or just obsessing over numbers!! It's all about damn numbers, and bones, and the guilty feeling of indulging in that one slice of pizza that happens to be made by Lean Cuisine. "Was that the right choice?" Did it have too many carbs? Why am I eating this so late?" --- That is just a few of the thoughts that go through a person's mind when they are trying to get over an eating disorder.

The point to his mindless rant is that I indeed am trying my best to lose weight without resorting to old bad habits, and so far it has only resulted in 2lbs lost (but I guess 2lbs is better than no lbs). I also survived the Superbowl (A.K.A. Major Binge Fest because I have no self-control).

I basically have a week to go for this diet bet to be over. I lost my first dietbet (I actually gained weight instead of losing), but I'm pretty confident that I will win this one. I mean I have changed my tactics this time around so something has got to give.

Good luck to those trying to recover from an ed, or going through the motions right now. It is a lot harder than anyone can imagine, and honestly, I don't think anyone actually completely recovers I just feel like our Eating Disorders go into remission.

Biking Syl

02/13/2016 6:15PM

Hi there, congrats on analyzing and staying on top of the issue! While I realize that counting calories is NOT the way to go, do you think there is a way for you to stay above 1200 calories per day (more when you are working out)? Maybe several small meals would feel less challenging? If you go lower than 1200, your body will go into starvation mode and refuse to lose more weight. It would be a shame, if you sabotaged your own hard work that way. I'm sure you know this... but I guess it is really hard to put it into practice. What is you strategy? Good luck, anyway, sounds like you are in the process of figuring this out!

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Candy

Hi, so I am trying to stay above 1200 calories, especially when working out. I have been getting pretty good at this. I'm currently just trying to fill up on as much fruits and veggies as possible and just trying to eat cleaner. I also try not to beat myself up if I have more than 1200 calories because I know that it's okay. Thanks!!

I think this is the perfect strategy. If you eat clean food, there is no reason to feel guilty about it from a nutrition perspective, should make it easier on you.

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