I am beaten up and broken down

You asked "what is so hard about....." my response is ALL OF IT. It's all hard, if it was easy we'd all be skinny minis and we wouldn't need DietBet or any other website, app, community, etc. The truth of the matter is it's a struggle for us, that's why we are here. You can't expect to be a pillar of all things healthy all the time. It just doesn't work that way. What you can do is be selfish and think about yourself and what you want to accomplish. That right there is so much easier said than done, I know because I have a hard time with it. I'm always worried about what everyone else wants and not myself. But I know that I feel so much better when I do take that time for myself and do things for ME, not my husband, my kids, work, family, etc. So hard to strike that balance though - I teeter on the edge every single day, some days I fall off but I get back up again. I have to, I owe that to myself.Heck, I had a pretty crappy talk with myself this morning since the scale hasn't moved in a week. The first thing out of my mouth was "whats the point of everything I'm doing if I don't see lower numbers?" I seriously wanted to stop and buy a dozen donuts this morning "for my coworkers"...haha we all know I was gonna eat 2 or 3 of those first. But I didn't, something just said "Don't quit, you can do this, the scale will move, your clothes will fit better and you will see results". By all means, if you feel the need to see a professional..then please do. There is no shame