Yesterday I ate 3 eggs for breakfast, a "lite" iced macchiato, 2 chicken breasts, 3 quinoa chips with 3 spoonfulls of guac, and 1 pbr. I aso took one bite of my fiance's burrito (HE COOKED UP ALL MY CHICKEN BREASTS AND ADDED BBQ TO IT ALL- DAMN SUGAR!) so now I have to find the time to go grocery shopping for more chicken on top of my dissertation, leading group therapy, and babysitting tonight.
I decided on going through with the 3rd interview since it's stupid of me to pass up ANY opportunity. If they offer me a spot I'll tell them I have more interviews in the next week but that I will let them know as soon as possible, and be really enthusiastic about their offer. I am mostly excited to get a tour of a 3rd inpatient facility. My dreams are finally coming true. Last night I was babysitting for this family; the dad works for the secret service and the mom used to be a social worker in syracuse. At 10pm they got home but sat me down to have a really serious conversation. They heard about my excitement over Saint E's and said they wanted me to take the position, take close note of how the hospital isrun, and that they can form an internship and career for me back home. They already have blueprints of a facility they ant to help fund to build and they want me to be the director. I said I wouldn't know the first thing about how to run an inpatient unit until maybe sometime next year but they listed all of these names of the training directors of the nearby facilities and how they've already spoken to them about me. First, they want me to work somewhere underserved in Syracuse to really get the feel for everything that needs support.. mostly a long term inpatient facility for adolescents. They also want wherever I work to be certified through HPSA so that I can have my loans paid back in full- as an incentive to keep me in Syracuse. This couple has already drafted statements to the politicians about the need for a facility such as this.
I was a little overwhelmed and still thinking "damn but I could have it so easy if I stuck with Saint E's forever, it's the most humane and smoothly operated institution in the US, I would just have to see clients and write my reports for forever... I wouldn't have to do any leg work.... advocay... self studies... accreditation. But then I thought, what are the ODDS that I took a babysitting job 2 years ago for $9/hour with zero info besides the couple knew my cousins, and two years later they are offering me a career? I feel like every opportunity, no matter how big or small, is slowly working it's way to your ultimate path. The ultimate reason why you were put on this earth in the first place.
My reason might be to become the best at what I do and then leave it all behind with my toolbelt of ideas in hand and start from the bottom back home. What else could I possibly want to do with my degree? I am passionate about Syracuse and what I do. It would be the most challenging and heart wrenching path I could take.
It's perfect.
Now here I am trying to wrap my head around what has to be done today, tomorrow, tuesday, and each day until the move. One baby step at a time. Like my weight (bahaha).
So I am ata my newest low. I am down 8.2% since January 15th, that's pretty decent. That's two dietbets right there. Also, I am down 13.8 pounds overall. They say it takes 10 lbs for you to notie, 20 lbs for your friends and family to notice, and 30 lbs for the word to notice. So by the end of this dietbet ost ppl will start noticing (everyone noticed as soon as I lost 9 lbs). I have to lost 5.4 lbs by Monday. I totally think that's doable! Especially since I just started losing weight again. A treat to myself was a whole new professional wardrobe. I got 4 new pairs of slacks, two new tops, and 3 new blazers, andddddddd two new pairs of shoes; oxfords and penny loafers. I have gravitated towards the men's section in target because they have a much better selection believe it or not! And the women's section never carries anything below a size 6 in the professional attire. It's very furstrating. I actually can't believe I'm a size 4. All of the clothes I had were a size 10-12 and so I naturally grabbed 8's off the rack and had to yell for my fiance to grab size 6's but the blazers were saggy and frumpy so I had to go down yet another size. In this photo I'm wearing a size 4 blazer and men's 28x32 so they're a little loose in my butt on purpose. What do ya think!?