Have you always been like this?

I had a doctor's appointment today to go over the medication that I began a few weeks back and its effect on me. There was a young nurse practitioner who would be working with the doctor today, did I have any objections? No, I said.

I have been thinking about this since I got home while Dog and went into the woods. 

The door opened and in walked a thin young woman in her official white coat and a laptop. They are following patient who specifically come to the clinic asking tio be seen about weight issues. There were a few questions, she said, that she'd like to ask. Ok. First off she told me that since I first appeared on their doorstep on February 9th I had lost 20 pounds by their scale. A slice off the loaf is never missed I said. I mean, right? It wasn't like I had just conquered Everest. It is a start, and truth be told, I was only there to make sure that I was provided with a refill.

Then she asked me THE question. Maybe it shouldn't be a big deal but it has been bothering me. "Have you always been like this?" Like what? Male? Drop dead handsome? Charismatic? No, I knew what she was asking but I wanted her to quit dancing and be direct. "Have you always been overweight?" Ah, there it is. Not bulls-eye-direct but on the edge of the target. You mean fat  I said. I weighed 30 pounds when I was 6 months old and I've never looked back I quipped. She was a little taken aback and definitely at a loss for words. Its Ok, I said, fat people know that they are fat.

As it turns out she was trying to decipher my body code image. It is interesting when you consider it. People who have been fat all of their lives see themselves that way no matter what their weight. That is me at least. Her thinking is that thin people who become fat think of themselves as thin and can visualize a thin person because they used to be. I don't know if her theory is right or wrong, but that's not the kind of thing that a person should be looking to find out. Anybody have an opinion?