Hi Kim! I too go around in circles with the same thing. I find an excuse for everything I put in my mouth, and so I lose weight only to gain it back again. I don't understand the self sabotage, but maybe surrounding yourself with like-minded people will help. I have learned that the worst thing you can do for yourself is fluctuate your weight. I am going to try to keep this in mind, as well as Melissa's theology: your body is the vehicle driving you through life. I don't want to be 60 and taking meds for preventable disease. The good thing is that you have taken the first step, every day after just keep taking small steps. Im rooting for you!
Kristin
Kristin