I do struggle too...heck, I weigh more than 100 lbs since you last saw me in person...perhaps it is fear...fear of the unknown, being 'the fat girl' is a role that you are used to, it is hard to change...doing some reflection to figure out the 'why' can be helpful. It is easy to list the benefits: feel better, lose some medication with the weight, etc.
Seriously, my 'logic' for a while was 'I like my boobs when they are bigger, and if I lose weight, the boobs will go with it...do I really want to go from a DD/DDD to a B/C again?!' Yeah, totally stupid reasoning...but it 'worked' for me for a while you know? God knows it is much easier to just keep doing what we're doing and not make changes, but change is difficult. <3
Seriously, my 'logic' for a while was 'I like my boobs when they are bigger, and if I lose weight, the boobs will go with it...do I really want to go from a DD/DDD to a B/C again?!' Yeah, totally stupid reasoning...but it 'worked' for me for a while you know? God knows it is much easier to just keep doing what we're doing and not make changes, but change is difficult. <3