Today, I finally forced myself to go into a gym since July 2017.. I have put on 20 lbs since Feb. 2018 and I've felt so bad about myself anymore, so I figured it I want to see the results, I need to put my whole self into this, and that's what I need to do. Push myself. I want to better myself so omuch, but actions speak louder than words. And the only way I can do this is show up and prove myself I can do this. Eat better, exercise daily for at least 30 minutes and get myself to where I want to be!

I'm tired of feeling depressed, and always putting myself down. I can and WILL do this. I just need to keep going with or without other's help. But it's nothing bad to ask for help.

I asked my brother and friend if they would join me in going to the gym, if not. I can't let that stop me.

I also need to quit looking at likes on instagram and facebook. Who cares what other's think? I have to do this for ME. No one else. My family needs me, especially my son. And he won't have the best of me if I'm  not at my best. Time to hit the gym more and to get myself happy and healthy.