I am a stress eater. An emotional eater. When things get rough I turn to yummy foods to make me feel better. I am fighting to turn that around and have been doing fairly well.
But right now there is a massive amount of stress in my life. As I've mentioned, my husband works 2nd shift. I work 8-4:30. It has absolutely torn our marriage apart. He finally broke down in front of his boss and his boss is willing to create a position for him where he either works the same hours as me or 9-5:30. Unfortunately, this also means a $1-2 decrease in pay, which isn't a huge deal, but we'd have to pay a little more for child care. At the same time our mortgage is going up by about $200 a month, and my student loans are increasing. We would be so hard-pressed for money it scares me. I just don't know what's going to happen. I struggle a lot with putting my trust in the Lord and letting him take the reigns. I need to find comfort in Him too, instead of things like food.
So all day today, along with this nasty cold, I just want some pizza. Warm, gooey, yummy pizza. I love pizza. I didn't bring a lunch again today, so I'm at the mercy of the hospital cafeteria and nothing on the menu sounds good at all. I know I won't get pizza, because I know that setback isn't worth the hard work I'd have to go through to work it back off. And lately that has been my mantra, if you will, for battling stress/emotional eating. "It's not worth the extra work to get rid of later." I can feel myself wanting to grow lax on things already, but seeing as I've lost 3.2 lbs already all I want to do is keep going. After all, I'm only 5.1 lbs away from my goal now AND from re-joining the "100 Club" and my weight finally being back in the 100s. And I'm SO excited to finally fit back into my wedding set. I haven't worn it in probably 2 years. I'm so tempted to try it on now but I want to lose a little more so I don't get disappointed if they don't fit.
Someone else's blog caught my attention about something else - rewards. Who hasn't used food as a reward? Omg my family does it ALL THE TIME. Especially with my son. This is something I really, really want to work hard on turning around. I don't know why we're so obsessed with food. I want it to stop. I need to sit down and think of ideas for alternative rewards. I mean, how dumb does it sound to reward myself for losing weight and eating well with some garbage? That's not rewarding myself. I need to take care of myself and reward myself with healthier things. Maybe once I've hit a set goal I go pamper myself with a pedicure. Go see a movie. Buy a cute new shirt. I dunno, I'll think on it more...
You guys are doing amazing - so many of you crushing it with weight loss already. I am amazed by what all you guys cook or come up with for meals - they look so good. And everyone is doing an awesome job with their exercise too. I can't wait to get back on the treadill. Keep it up everyone, you're doing great and you're worth it!