I am in the middle of a 9 week self-imposed healthy living project and a little more than half way in it feels like a bust.

From December 2013 to June 2013 I participated in my first DB10 challenge using Chris Powell's version of carb cycling. I did not follow it to the letter but it was definitely the basis of my eating and i lost 26 lbs. Then for some reason I decided not to use carb cycling. I still counted my calories (kind of) but I lost all motivation. Since June I have only lost 7 lbs. Yes, it is a loss but honestly, 7 lbs in 3 1/2 months is nothing really to cheer about when I had been losing 4 to 5 lbs a month if not a little more. So, some of you might ask "why don't you go back to carb cycling?". Well, that's a good question and honestly, I don't know. I've tried but I guess not wholeheartedly. I have somehow convinced myself that it wasn't healthy. I wasn't getting enough veggies but that was not really the diets fault. That is my fault. Chris recommends eating a serving of veggies 5 times a day (at least), I just wasn't doing it. I got out of my groove and I'm having a hard time getting back to it and I'm frustrated!

I know some of you might say "just back up and start going again." Great advice but again, I just don't seem to be able to. This round's goal is due next Wednesday or Thursday. I didn't make round 2 of my game and it doesn't look like I'll win this round either. I have a week and a half to lose over 5 lbs. No, I don't think so. Ugh!

Have I mentioned that I'm frustrated? : )

Well I guess today is a new day and we'll see how it goes.

(BTW, some of you might be tempted to say that I'm being too hard on myself or that my 7 lbs since June is wonderful or some other such thing. Could I ask you not to say those things? Several people in my life lately have told me that things aren't as bad as I think. I know that is meant to be an encouragement but all it really does is completely invalidates my feelings so just find another way to encourage me. Ok? Thanks!)