I would say it's a bust

I don't really know what to say, I just know that I would like to encourage you... some how, some way. So, does it help to say I'm rooting for you to figure it out? I'm in this too, and it's taken a long damned time to actually get on this train and stay on. A LONG time. So, I get it. Just don't give up. Inertia is real. Best wishes!!