AH I JUST BOUGHT A BIKINI!?

Posted on February 28, 2015

I can't believe I just bought a bikini... probably a terrible sign I didn't even want to walk out of the dressing room in it. I am 70 pounds less than last year at this time... yet I doubt I would have gotten it if it hadn't of been for my husband with me convincing me it was his favorite. I am very surprised I liked it.. I was only grabbing tankinis at first and decided to grab just one bikini... well this is the one.

I have 17 days til I am on the beautiful shores of Daytona Beach... not much progress will happen by then but I sure am motivated to eat right and workout more!

Since my husband likes it and find that I look sexy in it... I shouldn't care what anyone else thinks....... but I am still feeling very self conscience (40 more pounds til my goal of 130). I am already comparing myself to other women and loosing...and I am not even at the beach yet.

I think more than anything.. more than the jiggle and pastey whiteness... I am being most concerned with my stretch marks from having my son.... they are ALL over. He is almost 3 so they are pretty faded... and probably 2 feet away you can't even tell... (well that is what I am trying to convince myself of anyway). *Sigh* Did I make a mistake? Am I gonna scare people away??!?!?!

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bahhhhh

04/28/2015 9:25AM

First, you shouldn't worry about what strangers on a beach are going to think of you. That said, I know how hard it is to turn that voice off, and I know that insecurities are not chided away. So. Rather than spending your time at the beach fretting about your bikini, maybe you can grab a cute cover-up to help transition yourself into the bikini? Shed it when you feel more comfortable? You should be proud of your hard work, and I wish all women could just smile into the mirror and truly like the reflection-- but life isn't should's and wishes. Take your husband's compliments to heart, and find a way to rock the bikini AND some comfort :) (also, 70 lbs?? GO YOU!!)

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bahhhhh

People are jerks. Actually, I just wrote a blog yesterday about a gym-scoff-- I know that feeling. But I hope you can get to where you're comfortable (and me too). I don't wear a bathing suit visible to anyone, so, you're still doing better than me :)

Chelsy M.

Ugh a scoff at the gym is the most ridiculous place to receive one! Seriously! I sure hope to feel right in my skin and you yours as well too... I fear that a side effect of growing up with image and security issues... leads to always having them now matter how far I get.

LesliesKeepinItKeto

03/01/2015 3:55AM

From some one that has LOTS of stretch marks from having two really big babies (9.6# & 11#) .....wear the bikini, be confident about it, & love it! Confidence is more beautiful than anything else! And remember.....COMPARISON IS THE THIEF OF JOY!

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Chelsy M.

Thank you so much for the reminder... I really appreciate it- Comparison is a thief of joy!

Brit

02/28/2015 3:14PM

You rock that bikini! Don't worry about other people. You are beautiful!

Chelsy M.

:) Thank you for your kind words... I sure am going to try!

Carol W.

02/28/2015 1:46PM

It was so worth it to get those stretch marks by having your son. Just think of them as a badge of honor. I have scars from dialysis and then a big one from my kidney transplant, but I tell myself that having scars is small payment for a new life and it was so worth it.

Chelsy M.

This is so true, life has come from our scars... and that is beautiful. I just am not sure how much they should be shown off :/