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I'm sorry to hear that you are struggling. Perhaps you could consider seeing a reputable Naturopathic Physician (N.M.D.) in your area? Sometimes they can help when all of your blood work looks normal and a regular M.D. can't find anything "wrong" with you. I am currently completing a workbook called, "Ten Days to Self-Esteem" by David Burns, and I think it is great for learning how to challenge negative thought patterns. It IS a lot of work, however, and I think 20 - 30 days to complete it is more do-able. It sounds like you are being really hard on yourself. Best of luck to you.