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06/03/2015 8:44AM
I have this quote taped onto everything in my world right now: "The purpose of life is to be defeated by greater and greater things." - Ranier Maria RilkeI'm working on trying not to view my failures as "Failures", you know? Shit happens. Cookies happen. It sounds like you're viewing these things the right way-- which is to say it sounds like you're holding yourself accountable without beating yourself up. That said, I could not live a life devoid of sugar. It isn't worth it to me. Chocolate is my downfall. I want all the chocolate. So I try to buy little squares and be an adult about it-- treat myself to one or two after dinner, that kind of thing... Buuuuuuut... It doesn't always pan out. I ate like 10 Dove dark chocolate squares the other day. It was amazing. And the next day, I only wanted one. I dunno. Maybe there's something to all that "sludge meal" talk. As for the being in pain/not working out/feeling bad stuff-- yes. YASSS. My body feels good today, for the first time in over a week, and I know it's because I have worked out 2 consecutive days, drank 3 litres of water both days, and have been eating well. I wish I could like electroshock therapy myself into remembering that feeling bad makes me feel bad which makes me eat badly which makes me feel bad which makes me eat badly. LOL. I hate that when you're in the heart of ennui or general crap-feeling that all the logic just VANISHES. Vanishes in a puff of pastry and cream. Dieting is hard. I think I need to get a ta

Kimberly G. likes this comment.

Kimberly G.

YES!!!!! You have it perfectly!! It is a vicious, awful cycle!! I also magically forget that the cure to said cycle is working out, drinking water, and eating well. I know that I can't get rid of chocolate either. What is life without chocolate?! I just need to get it under control and not crave it ALL THE TIME. Also that quote is amazing. It acknowledges that we will have setbacks but we will continue to improve. Love it!

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