So... Round One of my Transformer is over and I have come out on top! I made my goal but, with only 0.1 lbs to spare. I am so proud of myself for sticking with it. I tend to fall off the wagon pretty quick when it comes to my eating habits. But, I am feeling good and looking forward to the next month.
After my final weight in on Saturday, I let myself splurge a bit. I still stuck with my salads and smoothies but, I had a few bites of chicken wing dip and a small slice of cake and...let me tell you my stomach DID NOT LIKE IT AT ALL!
For the first time the satisfaction, the comfort, of those foods did not compare to how good I have felt every day since I started this journey. Did they taste good? Heck YEAH! But I think I am finally starting to listen to my body and breaking down those emotion walls I have surrounding food.
I mean if my body says have a cupcake because you have been craving it for days and you don't want to go off the deep end - I will. I don't want to restrict myself so much that I self destruct. I can't tell you how many times I have told myself I need to give something up and never have it again and the next thing you know I am hiding in the kitchen cramming 3 or 4 Little Debbie's in my mouth washing it down with a Coke and some Pringles (I know you know what I talking about !).
The difference between then and now is that I am starting to finally understand the consequences of my eating habits. I can have the few bites of chicken wing dip but, when the cake comes out and my body is saying no not this time I have a choice to make : Feel crappy because I didn't listen and now I have a stomach ache, I'm tired and I feel like the couch is the only answer.... or say no this time, feel good , sleep well and know that just because I didn't have the cake this time doesn't mean cake will cease to exist and I will never have the chance to eat it ever again!!
I mean why didn't I think to listen to my body years ago!? Who knows. All I know now is I seem to be on the right track and I can't wait to hit my next goal !
-Amy