Day 28 - I have the final day jitters...
Well, this is a hard one to write. We've (and when I say we’ve, I’m being selfish, I really mean me) come so far in such a short time, I want it to continue...and hope I have built enough internal strength to keep it up...
I have learned so much in this short month & have made some great friends along the way...sniff, sniff...I have made some wonderful connections here on DietBet & I so hope that our paths will cross again.
Amy, CMKCAL & Jeannie B (and anyone else that has taken the time to post to me) – thanks for your constant inspiration, your continuous kind words & your sweaty selfies…ya didn’t leave a sista hanging…LOL It has been a pleasure for sure! And to all of you
Lisa L – thanks for all your encouragement, tips & pictures…but most importantly thanks for letting us know that we are all or have all been in the same spot once no matter where you come from or what your social status is…TRULY INSPIRING!
I am very nervous about this last day & the "final" weigh in. I know I have busted myself & pushed myself further & more than I ever have with anything before in my life, but something inside me says that when I step on that scale tomorrow, it will be fixed & all the unofficial weigh ins will have been wrong...CRAZY TALK, right?
I know...I know...I know...then why am I reverting to the old me...putting negative thinking in the forefront...I CAN'T let this happen...I WON'T let this happen...
Each of us have worked hard to attain what is ours...we may have different takes on it but we all deserve to celebrate our victories - whether big or small. I have many as this is the first time I have given my whole self without apprehensions. I jumped in & said why not...I AM worth it...I put my fear aside & let go...
For all of you - I thank you for being on this journey with me. For allowing me to write my daily blogs about my feelings, worries, anxieties, etc. It may seem stupid to some of you but being able to do this has been a great help. Just being able to write my feelings down & get them out takes pressure off & has allowed me to be free, so thank you.
It is only the beginning for me...I plan on seeing how far I can take it. It has given me great insight to the wonderful person I am & have always been but afraid to let her out...
Good luck to all. May you always remain positive, always carry yourself with dignity & grace and no matter what continue to push yourself...you never know what you are capable of unless you do...
LAUGH, LOVE & SMILE...the rest will take care of itself...BE KIND to yourself & OTHERS!
Jody
BTW - I heard this old Proclaimers song on Saturday afternoon driving & I broke into tears...it captures my journey pretty well. Sing it with me now:
I'm on my way from misery to happiness today (uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh)
I'm on my way from misery to happiness today (uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh)
I'm on my way to what I want from this world
And years from now you'll make it to the next world
And everything that you receive up yonder
Is what you gave to me the day I wandered
I took a right, I took a right turning yesterday (uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh) (yea)
I took a right, I took a right turning yesterday (yea, yea, yea, yea)
I took the road that brought me to your home town
I took the bus to streets that I could walk down
I walked the streets to find the one I'd looked for
I climbed the stair that led me to your front door
And now that I don't want for anything
I'd have Al Jolson sing "I'm sitting on top of the world"
I'll do my best, I'll do my best to do the best I can (uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh)
I'll do my best, I'll do my best to do the best I can (ha, ha, ha, ha)
To keep my feet from jumping from the ground dear
To keep my heart from jumping through my mouth dear
To keep the past, the past and not the present
To try and learn when you teach me a lesson
And now that I don't want for anything
I'd have Al Jolson sing "I'm sitting on top of the world".
I'm on my way from misery to happiness today (uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh)
I'm on my way from misery to happiness today (yea, yea, yea, yea)
I'm on my way to what I want from this world
And years from now you'll make it to the next world
And everything that you receive up yonder
Is what you gave to me the day I wandered
I'm on my way to what I want from this world
And years from now you'll make it to the next world
And everything that you receive up yonder
Is what you gave to me the day I wandered
I'm on my way