Love and True Blood

It might never feel natural, simply because not everyone was born equipped to handle things the same way. But repetition, commitment and practice can make it easier to maintain, and to maintain it for longer amounts of time. For example, I'm not by nature a social person. I'm very stressed by the thought of social situations and I need time to prep myself mentally for them and I need lots of "unwinding" time alone when I come home from social situations. But at the same time, I long for more social interaction. But it seems like when those opportunities arise, I sort of inwardly groan at the thought of it. I force myself to be social and I usually have a great time. I seem very social and outgoing, so nobody can really tell I'm not. I also struggle with knowing being more social is "good" for me and at times craving it and wishing it came easily to me, but at the same time I really love being by myself. I don't know where food comes into it. I think for me there's a tendency to self-sabotage when I start losing. I try to be aware of this tendency so I can call it out if I sense it's about to happen. Hope this helps, because I totally understand what you're saying. Just practice, stick with it, and over time it may feel more natural. Once it feels natural long enough, you might have learned to like that feeling enough for it to stick around. On a funny side note, I used to work on the True Blood set lol! (I live in Los Angeles).