Jackie, I just read your post and I was touched and blown away by your honesty and willingness to look at your life and carrying extra weight. You seem like a very bright and smart woman and I encourage you to keep doing what you've been doing and don't give up! Life always has set-backs for us all, but we can work through them and it seems like you have definitely been working through them. Keep on doing your good work and keep that great healthy attitude and philosophy that you have!