It is so amazing how our mind can lock the pain away, in order to keep functioning. I guess in your case the cookies are the only little crack in that armor that allows you to access the happy memory, to be connected with them while blocking all the overwhelming feelings. I found that it helps me to allow myself to remember happy times, instead of locking the memories away together with the pain. Celebrate the happy times. It took me years and years to get to that conclusion. Focus on celebrating the past. Give yourself permission. By being connected with the past in that positive way, this may help to make peace with the loss and all that happened. At that point, a picture of the cookies might suffice as a happy reminder. You never know. Because you know that you have that happy, peaceful memory in your heart anyway.
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