so far behind.. but I'm trying to find my balance somehow someway. I think there is just so much I want to do and my mind wanders so much its crazy. But you know what? Tomorrow, no matter what time it is that I wake up I am going to do my exercise in the morning. And then I'll get my steps in EARLY. It's the only way. I didn't eat unhealthy. In fact, it took me forever to actually eat something because my mind was elsewhere. I was too wound up about what else needed to be taken cared of that I wasn't thinking of myself at all. At a deeper level I think to myself, "How important am I?" That really gets my head turning because you know what? I worry too freaken much about others and their reactions to me. Why do I need permission by others? Why don't I feel important? So point being is I need to get into a routine and it's been hard for me because I'm waiting to be employed again. It takes so much out of me day to day when I don't have a set schedule for things. I like repetition because it keeps me accountable for things. So it makes me feel a little depressed if I don't obtain those goals day after day even when I am doing school fulltime.
So anyhow, just being real with you guys. I am just gonna compare myself to who I was yesterday and work off of that momentum.
Talk soon,
Adrienne Marie