It's been a while since I have wrote on here! So update- my last few nights have been pretty rough with my sleep and in return, everything is off. I know tomorrow I'll sleep a little more than usual to recharge and get going again. I love how Jen Widerstrom mentioned accountability partners in the game. It really made me think about getting myself going. It's such a mental thing with me. I can put in the work but I'm such a yo-yo person with my health journey. I have to say I can totally see what triggers me. The other night I binge watched this documentary series for eating disorders and since I have one myself that I'm recovering from it was extremely emotional for me to watch. I didn't realize how much I watched until I was done with it. An hour and a half of my life was gone. I was filled with so much anxiety my breathing became heavier and heavier. I didn't realize how much of an impact it had on me but what happened was I was not dealing with my emotions beforehand and that was my escape. I felt so sick to my stomach after watching that and I really wanted to throw up the food I ate after dinner but I didn't. I cried a lot but I held on through the night. I haven't felt that bad in a long, long time. I'm really trying to keep moving forward though despite the emotions that come up. They are going to keep coming up but I want to handle it well each and every day that passes. I want to push forward no matter how hard it may be. I'm never going to see results without doing so. I'm just looking forward to more restful sleep and to recharge my mind, body, and soul.
Love you all <3
Adrienne Marie