Hi guys, I haven't talked to you for a while, I just didn't think of any topic, but there are so many things to do here on DietBet so I guess you don't really mind, lol! Anyway, today I want to talk to you about the biggest struggle I think all of us go through from time to time - binging.
I'm on a 100 pounds weigh loss journey. One-hundred-pounds, that's just crazy! I started at 222 on New Year's Day and I knew back then the same thing I know now, it won't be easy. It's always so optimistic and puppies and roses to give yourself a new year resolution. This year is gonna be about my health and my body, I'll lose 100 pounds, I'll stay away from chocolate and sweets in general, I won't lose my strong will power etc. Yeah, like that's gonna happen...
January was strong. I was losing really fast all the weight I gained over the holidays. I felt amazing when I managed to lose over 20 pounds. February? Different story. The weight loss has slowed down significantly. And I'm sure you all know the power of our minds. Right away you feel discouraged when you put in all the hard work and you resist all the bad food that surrounds you and the scale won't show it.
Yeah, so that happened. I kept going and going and it went, slower, but still in the right direction. But on Monday it all got to me and I just said to myself 'You know, screw it. You worked so hard and you deserve the big bowl of spagetti you've been thinking about!' And so I made like the biggest bowl of spagetti with bolognese sause and tomatoes. And I enjoyed every single bite of it. That isn't so bad, you say? Well, it wouldn't probably be so bad, if I'd stop there. But by the time I finished the bowl (and I was pretty full already, it felt like the old days), nothing could stop me. So even if I was full as hell, I opened up my biggest weakness in the whole world - chocolate. It was soooo good I seriously was questioning if all of this, all the 'no, thanks' is worth it.
That happend Monday evening but I didn't stop there. This binge just grew and grew. On Tuesday I was up 5 pounds, just like that, overnight. I felt so discusted in myself, but I turned my anger in the worst possible direction, another bad food. Chocolate kept going, we bought macarons and on Wednesday I even had white bread and donuts.
But then I got enlightened or something, lol! I thought about my DietBet games and all the money I need. I invested in myself eventhough I don't have the cash to throw away. It helped me so much, this whole project! I thought about how good it feels to reach my goals, the small and the big ones. How amazing it is to fit into smaller jeans, to hear your friends and family to talk about how good you look. I realised it is worth it!
It won't be the journey that is easy and/or fast. There will be many missteps along the way. We just have to always remember why we started and see how long we've already come! And it will pay off eventually. One small step in time will add up to the result we've all been wanting and (un)patiently waiting for! I know I can't wait to be there and to tell my current self 'You did it! Look at yourself, you slowed down sometimes, but you didn't stop and you did it!' I know I'll be doing DietBet again, for sure. Again and again and again, because it may be just the thing I needed all my life, that push for change!
And if you're curious, I already managed to lose all the weight from my binge. It took me 3 days. In three days my cravings weakened quite a lot and my body started changing again.