I've slept more in the last 24 hours than I have in a very long time. The last several months if not year have been stressful and this week all that stress and work was validated.
Funny thing is in the instant that it happened I thought....." Gosh, I could really use a beer, and the biggest slice of cake." It was pretty clear that Alcohol and Food are comfort for me. The rationalizing starts. That voice in my head tells me I can just have one. I've done so well.
It's been 1376 days since I've touched alcohol and 1429 days since I finally got my health and eating under control. I was frustrated that my brain turns to food but proud. Proud that for the first time in my life I really felt like I have control. Instead of beer and cake I had stir fried cabbage, korean style beef and rice. All measured out to remain consistent. At the end of the day I still really wanted cake. Eventually I will have one but it's reassuring that I finally feel like I control that and food doesn't control me. Either way I will always be an Addict. The difference is I have gained self control.
My first few days of this diet bet really should have been derailed by my work being so chaotic. I remained disciplined but could not start my portion control 21 day fix food containers because they did not arrive. I did my best to portion on my own and stuck to my workouts. As always my water intake is lacking and since I am home I will be working on this today. About 3 lbs down, I know from my last diet bet round that this was consistent for all the changes being made and to just keep working because reality is the scale WILL go back up when my body realizes what is taking place. My workouts remain consistent with my rest days slightly off Kelly's schedule due to that first rest day. I like the workouts. Challenging enough to break a really good sweat and give me muscle soreness not to crazy that I want to throw in the towel.
I spent last night planning some of my meals out and will be heading to the gym and store shortly. I'm excited for week2.
Good Luck everyone!