Hello,
I want to start out with a little introduction about me and my journey thus far. I am a lot of things. I am 34 years old. I am a mom of two beautiful children. I am a military wife. I am the mom of a special needs child. I am currently a stay at home mom. I am a food lover and cooking maniac. I have zero love for myself and almost zero self confidence.
First things first. I am the mom of a 6 year old boy and a 3 year old girl. I love these kids more than life itself. My son was diagnosed last year with aspegers, a form of autism. I just thought he was quirky and a little difficult for a child his age but now I know why. Some days are more difficult than others. Some things that should be simple and easy are the hardest . My three year old is definately a spark too. She has a temper. So most days are frustrating between one child or the other. But I wouldnt trade it for anything in the world.
I am a miltary wife. We move every 2-3 years which is stressful. My husband chooses to work long hours and volunteers for extra duties that he dose not get paid for. He is hardly ever home. Its frustrating as most of the time I feel I am a single mom. I am not working right now due to our current location having a lack of local childcare options but when i was working a few years ago it was so stressfull. I praise single mommas. You guys are fantastic. Even though he is not around much, my husband is supportive of me. He tells be im beautiful eventhough i dont see it. He supports me in all my diet and healthy lifestyle endeavors.
I am a food lover. I love to cook. I love to eat. I watch cooking shows, I read cooking magazines, and i collect cookbooks. This is partly the reason why I seemed to have clung to the baby weight for 6 years. I am shifting towards more healthy cooking books and magazines.
I have zero love for myself and almost no self confidence. I hate what I see in the mirror everyday. Some people in my life have constantly brought be down by telling me I was fat and ugly. I live in a place where 95% of the population are super athletic and super skinny. Everytime I go pick up my kids from thier schools I see these people staring at me like I am a blue whale. Total confidence builder i know.
My goal with this diet bet is to lose weight but also to work on my self confidence and love for myself.