Well, I just dropped my youngest child off at college yesterday. In Santa Barbara. The land of relaxation, great food, great wine. And, I am losing my battle to fight the desire to eat my feelings. So, yesterday I drank a lot of wine and ate a lot of good food. One more lunch with my daughter, than appetizers and wine on a sunset cruise and pizza afterwards. And, as I sit typing this in my hotel, I am in front of a mirror and am appalled at my size. Am I really this big? I didn't think I was. Honestly. I know I'm big. In fact, I am "obese" as far as my doctor is concerned. But, I wear pretty decent clothing (I'm pretty good at hiding some of my rolls). I do my hair and put makeup on and when I leave the house I usually think I look pretty good. But, then, when I see a photograph or a full length mirror, I am shocked. And, after yesteday's indulgences, I am sure I am actually up from my original weight when I started.
Still, I am determined. Now that I am an empty nester I don't have the excuse of making and eating my kids' favorite meal. I don't have the excuse of having another glass of wine with my son. I am definitely at risk of NOT making this round 1 goal, but I am determined to get there. I am going to enjoy this last day in Santa Barbara with my husband. That will likely include another indulgent meal, and another bottle of wine, but I will get back in the saddle!