Lose weight the fun way.

Posted on January 14, 2015

Well, the dreaded bloodwork is back and while the news wasn't all bad, it wasn't good. The reason my vision changed so drastically is because I'm diabetic. And not just borderline, either. I'm on 2 meds now and pricking my damn fingers daily for the next month. If there is no improvement I have to start giving myself shots.

And I'm terrified.

I almost threw up when the doctor told me. I couldn't stop crying like a blubbering idiot. Were all those meals of crap, overeating, bags of chips or candy at one sitting worth it? Look what I've done to myself..all for stupid food.

I'm overwhelmed. I now have no clue what to eat, I'm hungry and stressed and tired.

I know with hard work I can overcome this. But that is one big mountain to climb and I'm so tired. Will I give up? NEVER. But for today, I really would like to hide from the world. With a bowl of ice cream :(

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RebeccaNow

01/26/2015 10:29PM

Not knowing how much weight you have to lose...being overweight to a certain degree can make this happen...you can hopefully get under control with your weight loss and then your blood sugar will follow...get with your doctor on what you can have to eat. They can get you with a nutritionist or diabetic educator to help you feel in control of your path. We are hear to listen when you need someone to scream with, cry with or laugh with! :)

Beth

01/15/2015 11:00AM

I can't imagine how you must feel! Thank you for sharing your story. I find that it is motivating me. Hang in there! I'm never giving up either!

Beth R.

01/15/2015 6:25AM

Not sure if it will help but my mother is type 2 diabetic and my father became type 1 diabetic at 61 (due to a virus that killed his liver and part of his pancreas). I had gestational diabetes with my second child and had to do the insulin shots for the last 2 months of my pregnancy. I know its not fun, but my advice to you is ask to be referred to a nutritionist. When I was diagnosed with gestational they immediately sent me to a class on nutrition. That helped me so much on what to eat and how to pair my foods. After I gave birth it did go away but I am still checked yearly. My father has told me that fried foods, rice, potatoes kill his sugar so he tries to avoid them and stick to the brown rice if he wants to eat rice. I really do think a nutritionist will help you not feel so lost. I know quite a few people that were on meds for diabetes that after weight loss are no longer on any.

desertcat

01/14/2015 5:30PM

As for why I've been a diabetic for so long - I was in denial for a long time and decided that since I was young, it was fine. I also didn't have a good education about nutrition in my early 20s, and I was very, very poor. But I've learned the hard way not to be stupid, and I hate to see other people repeat my mistakes. I've been trying to get through to my younger siblings, they have diabetes too. You can absolutely bring your diabetes into remission, but you have to keep eating right from now on, and regularly exercise (any kind, even for 10-20 minutes, as long as it's near daily, helps a lot).

Heather

The more I think about it, the more I've been in denial. I've had symptoms for at least 6 months - if not longer. I just chose to ignore it. Thank you so much for your replies. Helps me know I'm not alone :)

desertcat

01/14/2015 5:26PM

My sympathies. But don't feel like you just got an instant death sentence. I've been diabetic for over 10 years and I'm 34. Both my parents were diabetics. My dad lived to be 72 and he worked 80 hours a week most of his life, chain-smoked 3 packs a day, and ate the most awful food you could possibly imagine - like for real, boxes of twinkies at a time. If you change your diet and lower your carbs and sugar (and I did say lower - not eliminate 100%), your blood sugar will go down fast. Unfortunately, most diabetics don't maintain healthy habits and rely on the meds. Don't be one of those people. You want to get off those meds, and all their awful side effects.

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desertcat

I don't know what your diet is like, but I used to eat like 250-300 grams of carbs a day, and probably 2500-4000 calories some days. Now I try to keep my carbs under 160 and that's enough to make a huge difference. I still eat dessert sometimes, with real sugars, I just don't gorge myself anymore. It's been hard, I feel like I'm genuinely addicted to sugar, but cutting portions down to where they should be, and not eating dessert every day, or sugary coffee every day, and eating more low carb, with real, unprocessed food, has really curbed those cravings a lot and I feel better all the time.

Heather

I can understand that - I totally feel like I'm addicted to carbs and sugar. Before I made drastic changes 3 weeks ago, I'd go an entire day just eating carbs. It was awful. i'm going to grab those tests and see what it shows in a month, then again in 2. Be interesting to see what the 3 month average is.