by Heather - 01/26/2015 9:09PM
Slipping back into old bad habits AGAIN. What is wrong with me? Why do I do this? In no mood to c... Read More ›
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Your post has stayed on my mind for days. I know the feeling and it hurts to think about how you feel right now. (Or how you were feeling when you wrote this--hopefully you are feeling better now!) I hate to see you talk to yourself this way, it just adds to the struggles you are feeling. Be kind to yourself! Oh, and diabetes and weight and appetite are all very complex things. I am all for taking charge of the situation and living a healthier lifestyle to get it under control, but it's not necessarily as simple as saying you got diabetes because of the way you ate. In the process of developing diabetes, there were a lot of complicated things going on that changed your appetite, cravings, and body weight. Everyone blames diabetics as if the fat caused the diabetes, but it might be a chicken-and-egg problem, where the weight gain may be a result of the diabetes process, not the other way around. In any case, wishing you a much better day today!
Reading your post makes me think of two friends, both had high weight and both lost it for medical reasons. The first one said that the trick for her was to learn to make U-turns whenever she was heading into a wrong direction in her diet.... without make a big deal out of it...simply, just like in driving, she got back to the place from where the next step was clear again. The second friend was once sitting in my kitchen, telling me that she decided to lose weight. She stated clearly: "I am beautiful and fabulous, and now, I just want to be fit". Later, after she lost about fifty pounds, I asked her where she took the confidence about the statement of her own beauty. She replied: "At one point I realized I resemble my mom. Her, I always viewed as beautiful. From here, it was no brainer. I concluded I must be beautiful too". Aren't all our moms quite gorgeous?!!! Would any of us ever consider saying: "Mom, I will love you only if you lose weight?" Ridiculous thought, isn't it?
