@Red, thanks for the comment! I think it's a matter of zeroing in on the balance that I will be able to do for the long term. I have what I truly believe to be an undiagnosed eating disorder. Nothing life threatening (except for diabetes and heart issues that come with obesity), but it's there nonetheless. I'll always have to fight with food. I just need to find a way to be able to go through life being able to strike a healthy balance.