There have been lot of ups and downs for me on these diet bets. I mean that literally on the scale and figuratively with my mood. I started the year well, then basically brought myself back to square one after a slow February and a indugence filled March.
I find myself feeling WONDERFUL today though becasue, you know what? I'M STILL TRYING! I'm still here! I believe I can do this. I am nearly back where I was at the beginning of March and while I'm very far behind on one of my transformer games I think I can come back up to speed and win round 3, or perhaps more realistically round 4, and be successful over all. I'm totally on track with my two other games too :-)
All the struggles, the trial and error, falling off that metaphorical wagon and climbing myself right back on it have been so freaking hard. Yet I'm still here. I'm still doing it. I've learned so much about my weaknesses, my pitfalls, how I treat myself when I do well, how I treat myself when I mess up, what I do when I'm angry, bored, sad, and stressed. This year have been an introspecitve monsoon!
I am so oddly proud of myself right now and I want all of you out there who are still giving it your all, even when you know you have been far from perfect, or haven't seen much change, to be proud of yourselves too!! This is a learning process and we are all going to be better people for it. :) Just keep swimming.
I might watch Finding Nemo now...