Been thinking a lot lately about this journey I'm on to be healthier I am realizing that a big part of my journey is that I need to deal with past pains that pull me down to a bad place for I am holding on to pain from childhood of being bullied I hated school the thought of walking through school doors still terrify me when I have to go to the schools for my kids everyday I would wake and tell my mom I was sick until she brought me into the Dr they shoved a X-ray tube down my throat to check me out for ulcers nothing of course besides being overweight then coming home from school I would go straight to my room and cry till I couldn't cry no more then I would comfort myself with food that would never fill the void then I would cry myself to sleep at night imaging I could find the courage to kill myself day in day out I would go through this wondering those halls feeling my pain as the kids taunted me mooing as I walked by them or jumping out of the way like I would crush them I realize those bullies are still holding a power over me that I need to let go so I can move forward they do not have power over me anymore they can not hurt me anymore they can not make me feel small I am no longer a scared child I am a strong woman I am a beautiful woman I am a confident woman I hold the power to my life and I will make it through this and come out on top smiling from ear to ear .........(screams out loud) you have no power over me I have the power and I can do this
Posted on April 8, 2015
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Sign in to CommentYou are very beautiful and I'm so glad you can look beyond the taunts of unthinking others. I had a tumor that malformed my right eye when I was very little and I will never forget being called "dog" by one of the "in crowd" in school even years after it had been removed. I always thought myself plain and undesirable and still fight that thought now decades later. Bullying still occurs, and there's not a lot we can do to prevent it, but we can try to arm our own children with the ability and knowledge that they are each unique and beautiful in their own way. Thank you for sharing.
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Congratulations on your weight loss & taking bk your power...good luck on your new life journey!
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Heart wrenching story. However, we then make it down to those potent last few sentences closing out the story and showing the strength and beauty the came out of the refining fire of struggle. Carol, you are precious! Thank you for sharing.
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Oh my heart aches reading this! Well you know how kids can be and that they were just that - kids. Now it looks like you have one to raise up knowing that she is strong beautiful and confident because you gave her the tools to know what really matters :)
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