I have an amazing doctor.  I must start off with that statement.  

 

He has continually motivated me and been a cheerleader and supportive in my goal to loose weight and enjoy decreased PCOS symptoms.  Since working with him, I met my 75 pound weight loss goal in September 2013.  I think it was around then, but I honestly would need to troll my facebook page to confirm it was then.  Who cares! I was down 75 pounds!!!!

 

Then life happened:

  • Poppop died and my world was changed forever
  • 3 months later, Aunt Nina lost her battle with cancer and the pain continued
  • 5 months later, my ankle rolled on a small step.  I shrugged it off because that is the story of my life.  Then at 2AM I learned it was broken and I would need surgery to fix it.
  • I was forced to move home to my mom in PA (from NYC and 6 floor walkup) for 2 months
  • I worked remotely...enough said....
  • Work became even more stressful
  • I had issues recovering fully and had residual pain in the rest of my body from not walking/standing correctly

....And the downward spiral continued.....and I gained 20 +/- pounds back

 

In December 2014, I started a new job.  It was a monumental change for the positive. But I continued to struggle with keeping the momementum and I headed to my appointment with the doctor anxious because I still wasn't down all the weight.  I actually rescheduled twice because I was afraid to see him. I remembered an important lesson today.  

 

Who has heard the story of the blind men describing an elephant?  I was focusing on one thing and not understanding it all. I was forgetting:

  • I joined a gym and then moved to another one when it no longer worked
  • I invested in fitness tracker bands even when I kept hitting hiccups of malfunctions and breaking them as well as loosing them.
  • I started taking Plexus products, specifically probiotics, to try and help with my digestion issues
  • I set up a treatment/maintenance plan with another doctor and physical therapist so that  I would regularly check in and catch any issues relating to residual ankle break before I got stuck in a place full of pain
  • I increased my water intake exponentially
  • After 8 years of weak hair, it is now growing strong below my shoulders
  • I am happier and seem more at peace, according to those around me

I could keep going, but you get the picture.  I was like the blind men:  I was focusing on a small piece in a big picture.

 

What did my doctor see?  

  1. I am down 10 pounds from last year.  
  2. I was more alive about life and specifically as I showed him my new tattoos (basic summary:  been dreaming about 3 tattoos for almost 15 years, 2 others for 3 years BUT only got 1 done fully and another halfway 6 yeras ago and finally got all in last year).
  3. my bloodwork looked GREAT even though was taken without fasting.
  4. I acknowledged, on my own, that I am at a crossroad and need to make a decision.

 

I see him in 3 months and this is the goal:

  1. be exercising 3 times a week
  2. be consistently sticking with a nutrition plan
  3. be down to 220 pounds

 

I walked away wondering, "Why have I been avoiding him?"  I walked away with a lighter heart as well.  Thanks Doc!