Mary,Great blog post, I can see the therapeutic benefits in journalling about something that we typically tend to internalize. You have been very honest and identified past road blocks, as well as your true reasons for wanting to slim down. Your bible study is a great way to have that "community" that will help you stay accountable, as well as god to provide the refuge rather than worldly comforts. You seem to be on a path to success, and I wish you the best of luck! Keep up the journalling, bible study and good work! You can do it! (and keep it off for good!)