Something learned is never a bad thing...

Posted on May 4, 2018

So, today, I weighed myself as I always do, and I found myself weighing just a few pounds shy of the dietbet goal. Which is remarkable. And in seeing that I had the BIGGEST urge to BINGE eat. Why would I undo all that progress, is beyond me. I caught myself midchip. I had counted up the chips I'd eaten, and tallied them and added them to my food journal and then altered the rest of my meals/snacks accordingly. But it's like I have this need to self-sabotage. I really need to get into the nitty gritty of why. This lifestyle cannot be sustainable if I feel the need to sabotage my progress.

I don't know if it is merely in celebration and I just need to find a different method of celebrating. Or if it is literally a need to sabotage my good work, as though I'm not worthy of health and wellness.

When I figure that ish out, I'll be sure to update y'all on it.

Maybe it might help someone else...

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Brandy

05/08/2018 8:36AM

I use to watch Biggest Loser while eating a cheeseburger and fries. And reality is I think that I felt well I'm not that heavy, so why not. I think you handled the situation perfectly. When I get in that mindset of self sabotage I write in my passion journal. I keep a compact one for health and fitness alone. so it's not cluttered by daily junk. Replace it with something else! Good job on holding yourself accountable.

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Brandy

watching over eaters, yet another great tactic :) My work is having a fire noodle challenge on Friday and I am not sure I even want to watch or participate

Tracy V.

I couldn't do it. I like spicy, but I don't have the stomach for super hot things.

Samantha M.

05/08/2018 7:15AM

I've been doing the same.. lose 5 pounds then binge. its a hard habit to stop

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Tracy V.

Yes it is! I've been trying so hard not to and to figure out my need to do it. If you figure it out, let me know!

Ashley

05/07/2018 6:14AM

Many of us struggle with that sabotaging... I'm proud of you for recognizing it and being able to stop it!

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Tracy V.

Thank you!

Referee Megan

05/06/2018 12:21PM

Congrats on being so close to your goal!! I think we often eat mindlessly so I think it is huge that you were able to step back while eating chips and make a decision to stop because it didn't aline with your goals. Every time you are able to do that I am sure you are one step closer to breaking the cycle!

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Tracy V.

Thank you. I wish I knew why I would do something like that. I am trying harder to be more mindful of what I put in my mouth and why. If I'm making a bad choice is it due to lack of preparing? Or is it due to hormones or some psychological need that I have. This is one heckuva process, but I'm determined to win.

Referee Megan

You are asking all the right questions. It is a hard process that takes time to dig through and figure out why we make the choices we do. I love your positive energy! Sounds like you are on the right track to making some MAJOR long-term changes that will positively affect your life. Keep showing up, keep questioning your actions when they don't align with your goals and you will get there! :)