I need help.. or something.

Posted on November 18, 2014

I am young. Eighteen years on this planet, and not a single one have I lived "fit", or "skinny". I remember standing on the scale at a young age (12 approx.) and the number was high. I think that was the first time I felt like crap about myself. From that point on, my weight ballooned. The highest my weight has ever been was 262. I guess you can say I've been up and down since I was 16/17. I went from 262 to 190, then 190 to 230, then back down, then back up. I just stepped on the scale a few days ago, and I was 260. I was in disbelief. Since April of this year, I have been depressed. When I'm sad, I eat. My ex boyfriend of 6 months (I know, I know, not that long) had cheated on me with MULTIPLE girls. It was really heartbreaking. So I ate. And ate. Oh, and ate some more. It hurt me deep down inside. I didn't care about what I ate. And as soon as I stepped on that scale, I stopped and thought about what I could do differently.

I just don't know if I can do this. 100+ lbs to go...

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Kelsey D.

11/19/2014 11:03AM

Don't think of the big number. Set small goals at a time and with each goal you are that much closer to the big goal. You've got to have the right mindset. You can do it. Everyone around here is great support!

Brit

11/19/2014 3:41AM

I'm an emotional eater too and it's something I struggle with on a daily basis. You are in the right place and luckily you realized something was wrong and are open to change. Just take it one day at a time. Small changes make the world of difference. You cannot change the past but you can focus on the present and what you can change right now. Good luck!

Nukular

11/19/2014 2:03AM

Nichole, I was overweight myself at the age of 18 ... the highest my weight has been was roughly 130 kg. When I stepped on the scale, much like you just did, I knew I had to change. I managed to lose 50 kg within a year and have kept most of the weight off since then. If I can do that (I am kind of lazy) then you can, too!

Angela K.

11/18/2014 11:15PM

Of course you can do this !....and obviously you have to stop taking crap from all the losers out there....don`t sell yourself short ! You deserve everything good, we all do.

Gilad

11/18/2014 7:04PM

Aloha Nicole, Welcome to the diet bet! I hope we can help you get back on the wagon. Just keep it simple and take it a day at a time!

prsmomdoc

11/18/2014 6:45PM

The great news? you recognize the problem. You can STOP while you are still young, and prevent yourself from seeing 300 or 400 pounds. I have struggled with cheaters and heartache, many people do. At some point you need to value yourself enough to make real changes to make YOU a better YOU. Don't be all or nothing with your health; the journey is difficult and long. Take time to appreciate your efforts every step of the way.

Rebekah Y.

11/18/2014 6:16PM

We're all here for you Nichole. Your ex sounds like an asshole that you are better off without by the way he did that to you. There is a good man out there, just waiting for you. In the meantime, you need to work on you, for you. Don't ever try to change the way you are just because someone told you to. We're all in this weight struggle with you Nichole. There will be ups and downs, and times where we just want to eat an entire 3 bags of candy. The trick is to try to find something else to devote your energy to when things aren't going your way. Do you have any hobbies? I love to read, so it makes it easy to get lost in a book. Although sometimes it's just easier to play mindless games on my phone since I'm too irritated to put any concentration in. Sorry, I'm rambling. We're all here for you though hun and will help you out any way we can. I promise you that it gets easier as you go along...

Sara C.

11/18/2014 5:51PM

Nichole, I have lived that life. Heavy every minute. You are so lucky to have this community and support that a lot of us didn't have at your age. It's with that support that will help you succeed. It helped me succeed. I went from 230 to 159, an injury got me back here (I gained 20 back). Please feel free to lean on me anytime. You are on a journey and we are here to support you :)