I need help.. or something.

We're all here for you Nichole. Your ex sounds like an asshole that you are better off without by the way he did that to you. There is a good man out there, just waiting for you. In the meantime, you need to work on you, for you. Don't ever try to change the way you are just because someone told you to. We're all in this weight struggle with you Nichole. There will be ups and downs, and times where we just want to eat an entire 3 bags of candy. The trick is to try to find something else to devote your energy to when things aren't going your way. Do you have any hobbies? I love to read, so it makes it easy to get lost in a book. Although sometimes it's just easier to play mindless games on my phone since I'm too irritated to put any concentration in. Sorry, I'm rambling. We're all here for you though hun and will help you out any way we can. I promise you that it gets easier as you go along...