It's been quite a week for me

Posted on December 19, 2014

I had another crappy day. I have not been feeling very well this week. I have been having a hard time finding the time for my Yoga and only completed Days 1 and 2 of 12 Days of Gratitude. On Day 3, I was so tired I could barely stand it becuase I had 2 hours of sleep before I had to get up for the construction guys to come back. I decided to go to bed early and wake up and do the Day 3 video before the Day 4 video came up. Well I had to spend forever trying to weigh in first and then had to take forever to take care of my old dog who can't get around very well (which I gladly do because she's my baby).

However, the time these things took forever, and I do my token weigh-ins for my DB6 on Tuesdays, so I didn't want to chance it going up after I did Yoga. When the Day 3 video stopped at 11 mins and went to Day 4 video when I refreshed, I decided to call and sign up for the 10 day free trial with the site, and then just join the site for the $9.95 a month fee. They weren't open yet. I had to wait until later to call and then it was past time for the construction people to be here, so I had to wait until they came and left to continue my Yoga. Well they came late and stayed forever that day. It was a LONG day. Then I had another ordeal trying to help my dog get around and help her outside and back in and getting her to eat something.

Well by this time, it was evening and I had only had about 3.5 hours of sleep that morning and I was too exhauste dto do anything except complete my 5,000 step goal for the day and eat dinner and rest before bed. The next day, I had to get up early for the construction people again and then had to take my Grandmother to her Dentist Appt and then Christmas shopping. We were gone for over 10 hours. I did manage to register 10,000 steps on my fitbit, but I swear I walked 15,000 to 20,000. The Flex is notorious for not registering steps when I am pushing a cart, or carrying something (which is how I spent the majority of my day). When I got home from that it was after 11 PM, and I was completely beat and got ready for bed as soon as I could. The construction was done at least, so I thought I could sleep in and get some rest finally (been going on 5 hours of sleep or less because of the construction).

I was sleeping pretty well and then I heard the truck of head construction guy and had to jump out of bed and get presentable and rush downstairs. He just had a few things to touch up and he left before too long. I was so wiped out I spent the entire day in bed just feeling like I had been run over by a truck. I was trying to nap and just as soon as I started to drift off my dog started barking and needed out. I went and helped her out and made sure she got some water and something to eat and laid back down again. I was too wiped out from lack of sleep and exhaustion and sinus congestion to do anything.

Today, I woke up feeling somewhat better and was excited to start back at Day 3 of the Yoga Gratitude Videos. I had saved them all so far in my playlist and they had been working ever since I signed up for 10 day free trial which would roll over into my membership after 10 days. Well I fixed the dog something to eat and spent time with her and had my own breakfast and lunch and was having a pretty good day. Then I took a nap for about an hour and had a snack. Then I was about to start my Day 3 Yoga video and it wouldn't play. It kept taking me to a page with a sign up tab. I tried to sign up again just to get it to work and was going to call the company when they are open again. It took me to the same page without a place to enter my Credit Card Information as it had the other day. That was why I had to call them to sign up in the first place.

I asked my boyfriend to see if he could get the credit card information to load on his computer so I could give him my Debit card info to put in. This should have been a simple request, but he just went to who knows where and tried telling me the videos worked. He kept telling me to clear history and cookies which I did 3 times. After 3 hours I finally got him to understand what I was talking about and he went to the page I had asked him to look at in the first place and it was showing the same. I wasted my whole evening trying to figure out how to get it to play.

I had tried to call the company when it first wouldn't work and they said they were unavailable. I think it was past hours. I hope they are open tomorrow so I can find out why it's not working anymore. If they are not open tomorrow, I will have to set my AeroPilates Reformer back up, and get out some Yoga DVD's or use a Yoga App on my phone maybe. Or use my Sit 'N Cycle.

I feel like I have been running into walls all week long, and I am starting to feel defeated. I have no idea why everything always has to be so difficult every single day. It makes it feel like it's not worth trying at times. I feel like I never ever get any sleep. I am constantly so tired it's a struggle to get up and move... but at least I'm meeting my 5k step goal every day. This sinus junk came back after it had gotten better last week. I hate making excuses and I keep trying... I really do, but nothing ever seems to work for me. I have 2 final weigh-ins next week and I just don't think I'm going to make it. I have been eating well. I have been meeting my 1,000 deficit goal every day except one this week (at which I still had a 500-600 calorie deficit). But diet alone is not enough. My weight is stuck again. I am so close, and think I could do it if I could get some exercise this weekend...

Oh but wait, my gift from mother nature decided to show up today too. I have been known to almost always gain 4-6 pounds the week that is around. I just want to scream. I hate complaining and whining and I know we all have issues. It just feels like it helps sometimes to talk about things that are bothering me.

Here's to hoping we all make it through all the crap that piles up on us everyday and that we can keep moving forward and still reach our goals!

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Julie G.

12/20/2014 5:13PM

Wow, that was quite a week. I know either my menstrual period or several days of a sleep deficit can be enough to send me over the edge. You had both of those things going on, plus daily frustrations and a sick pup. It's no wonder you are feeling defeated. I can't help but think that after a couple night's of good sleep (plus fewer hormone surges as you move through your menstrual cycle), you will feel a million times better. I'm glad you are figuring out alternatives to fit in exercise. I know "they" say that weight loss is 90% diet, but in my opinion, the goal isn't just weight loss. The goal is overall health and well-being, and exercise is a very important component of that.

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GeminiWitch83 Amanda

Thanks! Yes I am 31. I was born in 83. Honestly it didn't start getting better until I had surgery twice to remove endometriosis, adhesions, and one tube and ovary. I also have an issue needing my IUD replaced because it's too low in my uterus. However, my insurance won't cover it at this time. I either need to save the money or try to find supplemental insurance. I really should take the time to look into it soon. I think that's causing some of the extra pain this time. I haven't heard about estrogen in fat cells before. But they makes sense with why the flow is extra heavy this time too. I am hoping you're right and as I get older and lose more weight it gets back in check somewhat.

Julie G.

Well, I'm only a few years older than you, and I think things had started to get better for me by the time I was 31. My problems were all hormone related (no endometriosis, adhesions, etc.). Birth control pills helped balance them out, but about 7 years ago I got a blood clot and had to stop taking them. About the time I hit 30, things started to calm down and become more regular. Still not perfect, but a lot better compared to my teens and 20s. I still have a lot of acne, and my dermatologist said it's hormonal so she can't treat it (unless I were to go on birth control pills again). I'm hoping that once I get to a normal weight and maintain it, my acne and menstrual cycle will be more normal. I hope the same for you! By the way, I looked into getting an IUD and heard that a possible side effect is more painful and heavier periods, so you are right that it could be part of the problem.

Janine C.

12/20/2014 6:28AM

You can do this!! You have the plan and motivation, and now just need to take time for yourself (even when there is other crazy stuff going on) and work your plan. Just 20-30 minutes is all you need to feel strong, centered and re-energized and ready for life's little bumps in the road. The road will always have bumps and that's ok. Taking time for fitness is GREAT stress relief and will help you feel more fulfilled and accomplished when you see the results you've been working for. I love that you have backup options ready to go (other DVDs, your bike, apps on your phone) for times when the workout you wanted doesn't happen. YouTube is a lifesaver. I'm going to make myself a list of quick YouTube workouts since some days you have just 10 minutes, but can actually do alot in that amount of time. Keep going--you are SO close to the finish line!!!!

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Janine C.

OMG I love potato soup. I had a truffle burger today and 2 cookies and just got back from my Turbo Kick class. I'll be good tomorrow since I have a big dinner in the evening. Probably have to just walk at work tomorrow since I have plans immediately after. Hope you're feeling refreshed in the morning.

GeminiWitch83 Amanda

Thanks. It is a little better today. Potato soup is one of my favorites too. Great job on the Turbo Kick Class! Hope you have a great day! Enjoy your dinner tonight :)