I have struggled with my weight the last 12 years (wow, has it really been 12 years?!) I am 26 and just had my 2nd baby. I gained 30lbs during my pregnancy and had my daughter 3 months ago. I have only lost 10lbs. Needless to say, I am 20lbs above my prepregnancy weight AND on top of that was overweight to start with. Im ashamed to say this but I need to say it. I need to be embaressed to change...I cant keep going back to my old ways...I weigh 200lbs and am 5'4. Im still wearing maternity pants because i cant put on my regular ones. My biggest before this pregnancy was 188lbs and id fluctuate between 160-188lbs. NEVER have I been 200lbs. I feel disgusting. Most of all, I need to be a better role model for my kids. This is it...Im not getting younger and im tired of saying the same things over and over again. Im ready for this. I need this