What a lovely ...sad..honest post!! First off 175 is NOT hugely overweight..but it doesn't matter when you feel dissatisfied with yourself..no matter the weight...but give yourself a break. BUY some cute clothes...that aren't going to FIT in 10 lbs. but fit now. You'll probably use them even if you lose weight. I go through times feeling bad about myself and remember a silly Oprah show I watched once when someone said "Be as cute as you can be!" and when I feel ugly and overweight or depressed I try and do it...fix my hair and put on something cute... and go for a walk. and turns out I do start to feel as cute as I can be. FOR ME! for no one else!!! Good luck. I think your post means you've won more than half your battle. bravo!